This is killing me. I probably shouldn’t be writing this in a public entry but I’m going insane not being able to talk to Lou. She can probably see this anyway. Hi there.

Some stuff she’s said has made me confused and I’m not sure if it’s just because if I’m too stubborn or it just wont sink in or what. I need to talk but she wont yet.

It’s seriously fucking me up. I don’t want to be harassing her though. Arghhhhhh.

I’m in one of those shitty limbo states at the moment and as usual have no control over it whatsoever.